Finally I'm typing again for this blog.
Hi everyone, how's life?
Me? Pretty Bad.
Ya, I was just getting older. 19. Last year of being teenager, which is I have to enjoy this year, no matter what no matter how.
Was I happy? Well not really. My boyf leaving for holiday, without saying any goodbye and the worst is his phone is broken, that means we cannot communicate in weeks. Even he gave me presents, surprise, no... no... I dont want that. I want him. Only him here, beside me, accompany me. I want him as my birthday present, actually :(
I wasnt really happy too, cause of my illness. I've got thypus so Mom do not allow me to go anywhere. Sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep............
What's been ruining my mind is about my silly thought. I'm kinda feel..strange. Strange to everyone. Don't know who's change, me or friends either. I don't have my closest friend here, in heart, in soul. I've been trying to be always in faith to them, and.... I didnt find it. Faith. Honesty. Sincerity.
Maybe I'm too sensitive.... Sorry if I always be the wrong one. Sorry friends. I miss having my real friends, not them who pretend. Yes no one's prefect, me either, but.. ya really want to find my best, very soon. And trying to not being selfish again, and erase my perfectionist thought.
in the mourning mood,
Ajeng
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